The Birthday Post

While some people use the new year as a time for personal resolutions, I never sense the change that invokes these resolutions. December to January is just cold to cold, and January is post-Christmas, so let me just stay in a Post-Christmas hangover, huddled inside before and after the barn. ANYWAYS, for those reasons I [...]

A Little Late Night Check

This has been such a weird season, and I'm determined not to lay blame on, "2020." I've remained relatively sure that the quarantine, turbulent media, and fragile climate we're living in is NOT the reason for my unrest. Meaning, my own confidence is positive that my mental health is not affected by any type of [...]

May It Be to Me as You have Said

"I am the Lord's servant," Mary answered, "May it be to me as you have said."Luke 1:30 The verse above was at one time written on a chalk board in my previous apartment, back when I thought vintage chalkboards were trendy home decor. It's not one of those inspirational or famous quotes, like the one [...]

I think Fear is Expensive

Over the past few months, I've started but never completed my post on the fear I was working to overcome in my riding habit. This February I fell off in a competition, and while the actual fall wasn't super painful, it was the catalyst to months of torment when I faced going back on cross-country. [...]

I Retreated to the Family Farm, either yesterday, or two weeks ago, I can’t remember.

You know what is sad? I have no idea if I've been home two weeks or three weeks. All the weeks and days have just blended together. It's been quaint and nice to be home, but I feel like I'm in an extra long Christmas vacation. When my corporate office closed (either two or three [...]

Rider Diaries: Practice, Decision-Making in the Moment, and Chopping Wood

In the few weeks since my last post, a lot of head-way has been made. No, I did not dye my hair, and I may have only made it to the gym like twice. But, there was one night I did fifty crunches before bed, and I realized that my vacuum wasn't pulling all the [...]

Holiday Blues?

So, one aspect of my blog that's been both frustrating but self-motivating is the confession of my struggle with mental-health. I am so frustrated with it, because over the past few years, I've really begun to distrust my own inhibitions. I first recognized, or was pointed down my mental health journey in 2015. When under-stress [...]